All alone at Family on Easter Sunday morning
Sunday, April 24, 2011 at 11:01AM 
Margie has been gone for just about a week now and I have breakfasted out altogether too often, so I had resolved that on this morning, both for the sake of our pocketbook and my health, I would stay home and cook oatmeal.
But when I woke up for the final time, buried in cats, I did not want to get up at all. I certainly did not want to get up and cook oatmeal. So I lay there, thinking about it, and it suddenly occurred to me that it was Easter Sunday. I did not think it right that on Easter Sunday, I should get up, cook oatmeal and eat it all alone on the couch.
I decided that, fiscal prudence and dietary health be damned - on both counts, I am pretty much hopelessly lost, anyway - I was going to have my Easter breakfast at Mat-Su Valley Family Restaurant.
Had Caleb been around, I would have invited him, too, but even though we sleep under the same roof - I sporadically at night and he through astoundingly long hours in the day - I rarely see him. He was off, somewhere.
So off I went to Family, alone.
"Do you need a menu?" Connie asked, knowing full well that I wouldn't.
"No," I answered, "I'll go with the omelette today."
"Denver, with mushrooms, hash browns lightly cooked, twelve-grain toast on the delay," she filled in the rest. Normally, she would have been 100 percent right, but today, instead of toast, I decided I wanted pancakes.
A bit later, Norman came walking by, carrying coffee and water.
I got to thinking about my grandsons, who I have not seen now for a couple of weeks. They will spend today with Margie, her mom, their parents, Lavina's mom, sister and other family members from both the Apache and Navajo sides of the family at Margie's place of birth - Carrizo Canyon, on the White Mountain Apache Indian Reservation.
It will almost certainly be warm, and they will gather seasoned oak and make a cooking fire. On that fire, they will cook Apache bread, slices of steak, hot dogs, and multi-colored Apache corn.
The adults will hide colored eggs here and there and then the little ones will go find them.
Some of those eggs will be hidden in plain sight and the bigger little ones will have to leave these eggs be.
These eggs will be for Jobe to find.
And yes, since he left here two weeks ago, Jobe has become a full-fledged walker.
In my mind, I can just picture the gleam in his eyes and his bright smile, as he toddles excitedly about, grabbing eggs with his chubby little hands. Maybe with a little help and guidance, he will then place his eggs in whatever type of basket he has been given.
And I will miss it.
I, his grandpa, who first photographed him only minutes after his birth, who, despite my wandering ways, have tried hard to document each step of his life as he has moved alone, will miss his first Easter Sunday Easter egg hunt.
Kalib, of course, will now be an old pro at Easter egg hunting. I hope he enjoys it, anyway. I hope he and cousin Gracie have a good time, gathering eggs.
I do pretty good alone. Better than most people, I think.
Yet, I felt awful sad and lonely, as I sat right here, in Family Restaurant, eating my Denver omelette with mushrooms. And yes, as I do throughout each and every day, I thought of Soundarya, too, and wondered how she and Anil might have spent the day, if they had but survived.
Even though she was Hindu, Sandy was very much up on all the Christian holidays.
Then along came Meda, refilling coffee cups. I had not seen Meda before today. She is new on the job - four or five days, she said. She said she loves the job, it is "awesome."
She was a little bit shy and slightly coy, but very friendly and warm and when she poured my refill, I felt a little better.
But still, I needed Jobe... and if not Jobe, at glimpse at that magical beam of the spectrum of life that Jobe currently occupies.
I looked around, and could not see a single child in Family Restaurant. I knew there would be plenty of children later, when families began to drop by after church, but I could see none, now.
And then, just as I finished my last bite, I heard a little squeal, accompanied by the sound of tiny foot-falls pattering rapidly across the floor.
A tiny girl, right about Jobe's age, scampered out of the large dining room beyond.
It was Molly.
Just Jobe's age.
On Easter Sunday morn.
Reader Comments (10)
Happy Easter, Bill!
May you and all your family have a blessed Easter Day.
Your grandsons are cute. But that Molly! Nice Easter outfit! Definitely sweet.
Happy Easter Bill.
Happy Easter. Thanks from sharing your morning.
Molly is adorable...have a Happy Easter Bill
I had grand blues today too...
Lil Molly made my day!
I wouldn't say you were entirely alone on this holiday. Holidays seem to be designed to make the alone feel lonely.
cheers
conchscooter
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Yes,,,,, missing Jobe is tough to handle!! Esp wid all the love he shows in his eyes when u photograph him...
CutieeePie Molly!
Now Bill, how could you be all alone on the couch with all those cats? It just isn't possible, is it? Perhaps you were really looking for some peace. I sure enjoy your blog, and I can't tell you how long my family laughed over Kalib and his spatula. That was the best. I also thank you for your kind words yesterday.
Aw, I'm sorry you had to spend it alone Bill...but Happy Easter!